A few years ago there was this job I really wanted to get. In my pursuit of the job, I took a different approach to things and prayed to God about my request. I was trying my best to claim the Bible promises: “Ask and it shall be given, seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened unto you” – something along those lines. I had all these promises and I was like: “Okay God, I’ll put you to the test. I’m gonna try you and put all my faith in you.”
It sounds silly to say now, but I was after a testimony. I wanted to say that I’d set out to do this – I’d put it before God claiming His promises, and God came through. So, I prayed and I prayed and did what I thought I was supposed to do to make it happen.
But yeah, it didn’t happen… and I was mad at God.
I was disillusioned and disappointed. What was supposed to happen, didn’t happen and I couldn’t understand why. I did what the Bible said I should do, but what the Bible said would happen, didn’t happen. I was confused, sad, angry… I was everything… And I entered into another funk of life.
I was confused, sad, angry… I was everything… And I entered into another funk of life.
I don’t know how I got to the point where I heard the song again… I probably got bored of listening to all my soca and reggae. But somehow I came back to the same song: He’s Able – by Darwin Hobbs – reminding me not to give up on God.
It never really happens deliberately. I’m never like, I’m gonna stop serving God; you just fall into your own way and over time you pray less, you read less, you care less, and you try less. It’s not because God has done anything wrong or anything bad, it’s just different life experiences. I have a habit of treating God like a genie and expecting that if I just ask for something and claim the promises which say it’s supposed to happen, then it’s supposed to happen. And maybe that was the problem in this case. But when I can’t make sense of the Bible, or what I’m supposed to do… Every time I feel disinterested or less gung-ho about my faith or Christian walk and say “forget it” – this song is just that reminder.
God doesn’t give up on you so don’t give on Him!
God doesn’t give up on you so don’t give on Him! I’m encouraged, the words resonate with me. It has an emotional impact. Even speaking about it, I get choked up.
J
GTA, Canada